Ayahuasca & Wachuma

Motherland grew from my own journey through motherhood, family struggles, loss and finding the courage to begin again—many times.

As a mother of four daughters, there were times when I felt lost in the world, trying to survive while carrying more pain than I knew how to hold. Yet somewhere within me, a small hope remained—the feeling that life could be different, even when I could not see the way forward.

That search led me to plant medicines, which became an important part of finding myself again. Through my experiences, I began to recognise how much pain I was holding onto, and how deeply I was living in the past.

Little by little, I found a new direction. I wanted my daughters to see more than a mother who was struggling to find her way. I wanted to show them that we can begin again—that we can meet our past with honesty and still move towards a different future.

I began to observe my thoughts and patterns with more awareness, rather than being carried away by them. My connection with nature deepened—with the trees, the animals, the changing seasons and the life we share on this beautiful Mother Earth.

In my twenties, I began exploring energy work. Over the years, I studied and practised different forms of massage, deepening my understanding of anatomy and the human body. I became an energy worker, yoga teacher and reflexologist, following a curiosity that has accompanied me throughout my life.

Looking back, I feel that all these experiences—even the struggles and the times I felt lost—were preparing me to become who I am today. They are part of my life, woven into how I listen, connect and welcome others at Motherland.

I am still learning, still growing and still finding my way. My intention at Motherland is to offer warmth, presence and space for people to listen to themselves, reconnect with their bodies and discover their own direction, at their own pace.

My path has never been a straight one. Life has brought me through profound losses, challenging family dynamics, painful experiences and my own struggles with addiction. Like so many of us, I have had to find my way through the patterns and wounds we inherit, the stories we carry, and the ways we sometimes lose connection with ourselves.

What once felt like a struggle eventually became a doorway. My search for healing led me to psychedelics, opening up new perspectives on consciousness, the human experience and our capacity for transformation. What began as a personal journey gradually became a calling.

I spent two months in the Amazon rainforest, studying within the Shipibo tradition. Through this experience, I received what I understand as my Don — a spiritual gift and calling through which I was initiated as an Ayahuascera. This experience profoundly shaped my relationship with plant medicine, ceremony and the responsibility of holding space for others. Back in Germany, I continued my education through a more scientifically oriented training in psychedelic facilitation, bringing together traditional knowledge, personal experience and contemporary approaches to consciousness work.

Yet one of my greatest teachers has been much closer to home: my four wonderfully different children. Motherhood has taught me more about love, responsibility, patience, boundaries, letting go and trusting another person's individual path than any textbook ever could. It has taught me that every human being carries their own truth, and that our task is not to shape others into who we think they should be, but to create the conditions in which they can discover who they are.

Today, I bring these experiences into my work with people. I am curious about what lies beneath the stories we tell ourselves. I value honesty over comforting illusions, responsibility over blame, and genuine growth over the endless repetition of old patterns. I believe that we can meet even our most difficult experiences with courage, compassion and a little humour. I don't see myself as someone who has arrived at the end of the journey, but as a fellow traveller who has learned to recognise certain paths, hold space through uncertainty and offer a different perspective when it is needed.

My approach is grounded, open-minded and deeply human. I honour the depth of spiritual experience without believing that healing needs to be surrounded by mystery or fear. I want people to feel safe enough to explore their inner worlds, while remaining connected to their own discernment, freedom and responsibility. I am not here to provide answers for someone else's life, but to support them in finding their own.

Beyond my work with individuals, I carry a vision of community: a way of living in which people support one another without losing themselves, share what they have to offer, take responsibility for the whole and allow each other to grow freely. A world shaped less by competition and fear, and more by connection, integrity, peace and love.

I believe we don't have to wait for the world to change before we begin living differently. We can start here, with how we meet one another, how we listen, how we take responsibility and how we create together.

Today, I feel that I am living my purpose: to touch as many souls as I can, to plant seeds that may blossom in their own time, and to help people reconnect with the light that has always been theirs.

Community, sharing, peace and love are not just ideals I believe in. They are the world I choose to help create.